They say that sociology is dead in Russia, it is impossible to believe the polls’ results that are being carried out under the oppression of a dictatorship and total control of the authority. Maybe that is true, I'm not a sociologist, but I have my own conclusions; commenters that come to each of my posts, they carry the banner of the war with the symbols of their newly invented swastika. Those who carry these banners, they are my evidence.

When a friend wrote to me: "Putin is not alone, there are 140 million of them," I replied: "No, there are still good people." And the friend agreed with me, and replied: “Yes, five people.” And I had no answer to give, because I also had only five. Her five people and my five people, maybe you have five of your own - that's our references, everything is on the table. Polls, which experts advise not to believe, are really not needed.

Odessa was bombed on Holy Saturday. It was very painful. No, it didn't hurt me more than Kyiv, Kharkov, Mariupol, Bucha, Kherson, Nikolaev... but it hurt a lot. Yes, and Saturday was Holy. To me, being an agnostic, it was probably easier. Then again it may also be more difficult, there is nothing for me to grab onto, no one to turn to, only the pain remains.

The commander-in-chief of the country, who gave the order to bomb, on the same Holy night went to the temple of God and was not struck down by his wrath in there. While the commanders minions came to comment on the posts about the bombings, carrying their satanic flags. Then, probably, they kissed three times and ate a piece of the consecrated Easter bread. So, I would rather remain agnostic.

The same people, who the experts suggest not to believe in, came to the post about Odessa and told me about Nazism and fascism. Some especially zealous fighters against Nazism and fascism could not decide what to label me as, a “khokhol”, or a "dumb Anatolian Turk", such is the newspeak of these “anti-fascists” today.

And when someone says: “Nonsense, all these atrocities in Bucha could not have been committed by Russia!” I will remember those same commenters. It was their sons, brothers, husbands, uncles and neighbors who committed these crimes under the guise of "anti-fascism" while they committed the same crimes verbally.

No, of course, I will not believe the opinion polls, it's useless. I will believe the comments in my posts, not only justifying evil, but quite literally writing it in stone. It was also them who killed in Bucha, destroyed Mariupol, bombed Kharkov and Odessa.

And these five of mine, five of my friends and five of yours, must be terrified. Because all of those, who already have blood on their hands, have tasted it, walk along the same streets with them, live in neighboring apartments and ride with them in the same tram .

Natalia Kildiyarova